NYE 10-11

I had no idea on NYE of 09-10 how much I would grow this year, of course I was excited at the thought of meeting baby Aiden and how long and hard we tried and waited so patiently for his arrival. I had no idea that my heart would grow 3 sizes that day and how I trusted this tiny 8 lb baby boy with my heart til the day I die. The fact that he took my heart so willingly and has never let it go in the 8 months we have been together makes my heart feel happy. Even the days I question whether I know what the heck I am doing as some one's mother, one smile from this incredible baby boy and I know this is exactly where I am supposed to be. My life is exactly where it is supposed to be and that makes me happy. Aiden is pulling up on everything he can and then smiles the biggest, gummiest grin when we clap for him. He is just starting to cruise along the furniture although he forgets sometimes to move the feet along with the arms but that will come soon enough. My baby doesn't want to be a baby anymore although he still enjoys a good cuddle with Mama and that is usually the best part of my day. One smile from him and my heart could burst. He knows me and we are his whole world...life is right where it should be so bring on 2011!!!

Houston, we have lift off!

Got admitted yesterday evening with exacerbation of pregnancy induced hypertension meaning my current high blood pressure had risen again and the MD's felt it was best to just go ahead and move my scheduled induction from Tuesday the 27th to Friday the 23rd. I had been begging for baby A to make an appearance, but was anxious when the docs finally said OK. Checking at at 4, had 2 amazing RN's taking care of me overnight along with some great OB docs. They did 2 rounds of Cytotec which is supposed to soften your cervix and start some contractions. First dose, you lie in bed on contraction monitor for 2 hrs then you are free to sit up and move around. They checked and I was still 1 cm and 50% effaced, so no real change. Up comes dose # 2 and after an hour things were rocking on the monitor! At 4 hrs they checked me and I was having some major contractions but of course, only some slight progress. Now I know what they mean when they say "when contractions start, you will know it!" They were pretty uncomfortable in my lower back but can only imagine they will get worse on pitocin this morning. Thank god for the epidural! I walked a lap around the ward and I am pretty uncomfortable, so I am back in bed. Hubbs got about 6 hrs sleep to my 1.5 hrs but he is gonna need to be strong for me today so it's all good. Hoping to see baby A by the end of the day today!!!!!!! Eeeeeeeekkkkkkk!!

April 7th

My maternity photos are in:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=55886&id=1133312419&l=391a4c7f76

March 28th

Our first "real scare" was this morning. I woke up at 6:30 and sat up just like every single day of my life. I instantly got so dizzy and the room did 4 or 5 quick spins. Reminded me of my younger days when you woke up and realized you were still drunk from the night before? Ahhhh....the memories! But anyhow, I came downstairs (carefully mind you) and had some water. The lightheaded feeling continued and if I moved my head too quick the room spun. Made a cup of coffee and took one sip and got nauseous. This was weird, so I decided to call the after hours line just in case. They called me right back and said to come in just in case.

I woke up S and I am sure he thought it was because the baby was on his way when I said "We need to head into the hospital." One long dizzy car ride in and we were admitted to labor and delivery triage where they hooked me right up to some fetal monitors. Aiden was bouncing around in there, happy as a clam! My blood pressure which has been running in the 110's/60's was at 138/83. Yuck! They took it about 5 more times and it was always the same. They drew some pre-eclampsia labs which luckily all came back OK! My urine had trace protein in it, but it does every appointment so that was OK too. They discharged me, but are "keeping me on their radar" per the RN. I told them we would see them in 4 weeks, and the RN just winked at me. I have been saying since the beginning that I thought it was mid April and he has measured that way this whole pregnancy, always 1.5-2 weeks ahead.

Anyhow, I will be 36 weeks this Tuesday and am grateful that baby is doing so well in there. I have had a few sad moments this past week as 2 good friends of mine who are still on their IF journey have had tough times. A coworker whom I love is just starting IUI's and getting frustrated at the heartbreak of that call every month with the "I'm sorry but your not pregnant this month. My TTC buddy just had her 6th loss and I can say/do nothing to make it any better. It breaks my heart and I cried like a baby for her. It takes me back to just a year ago when we were just heading towards IVF and I was feeling like this would never happen for us and here I am a year later with a beautiful baby boy about to make his debut in a few short weeks. I have been complaining a lot more lately about the aches and pains but this brought it right into perspective again. I am one lucky girl and I just need to remember that!

March 15th

I feel so incredibly lucky to be at this point in my pregnancy. We have had an amazing baby shower where our friends truly spoiled us, and even though I got a bit emotional when thanking everyone they knew it was truly heartfelt. My life right now is pretty awesome! I keep thinking at this point next month Aiden could be here, and that thought makes my head spin. I know every pregnant woman says that they don't think they will honestly go "the whole way until their due date" but I just have a weird feeling/intuition. He has been measuring ahead for quite awhile now, with 2 weeks ago his head measurement placing him at 37 weeks! It is quite possible if I can get this giant head out that the rest of the delivery will be a piece of cake!! Hahaha

The one thing I would change about this pregnancy and the only thing I would ever complain about is the heartburn! It is horrific and bothersome every single day! I am taking Prilosec twice a day and then still taking Tums at some point during the night. I think right now it is much worse only because there is no room for any of my internal organs, since my big headed son takes up all the room in there!! I love him and love all the crazy kicking he does, but the acid can leave anytime it wants to!

March 7th

Eeeeek, yes I am writing this at almost 2 am on the day of my baby shower. In 9 hours everyone who I love will be in the same room to celebrate that finally I get to bring have the baby we have so desperately prayed for. I keep thinking right now that Aiden will be here next month and it gets me all crazy! I can so easily revert my feelings back to this time last year when I didn't know if I could make it through another failed cycle, but I did. I have a few friends right now that are cycling and I feel their pain so vividly. I don't know who decided it was finally my time but I thank God everyday that they did. I am excited for this new chapter, but scared as well. I know S. and I will be good parents and will love this gorgeous baby boy more than life itself. I cannot wait to meet you Aiden and to kiss those chubby little cheeks I keep seeing on the ultrasound pictures. To all of my family and friends that are just as close as family, thank you for sticking by me through this and I love you all more than you will EVER know!

February 16th

30 weeks! I have a hard time believeing it, but we are indeed 30 weeks today. I feel like I waited so long to actually get pregnant and now I am almost done! It seems so surreal at times, and then he usually kicks me in the baldder to bring me right back to this being reality! :) Last Monday we went to have a 3D ultrasound at a place in Boston, and even though it was $130, it was the best money I have spent in a very long time! Was so incredible to see Aiden look "like a real baby" instead of the baby in the other ultrasounds we have where he still looks a skeleton like. He moved around so much during the ultrasound that even the tech remarked that we may have a little tornado on our hands in April. I am just so happy that he is growing right on schedule and appears to be a perfectly healthy little boy!

Here is a sneak peek..